yesterday was kinda like meet the family for W. finally official. no more hiding and stuff and it's nice. :) talked to my mum about it.. she's fine w everything and like gave me advice about how to make sure my r/s goes well. maybe my dad isnt but that's.. normal.  i havent met his yet. only his sister. and parents from a distance. so like that's not counted.  im kinda excited but i really hope i dont get socially awkward. yesterday my juniors just told me they were scared of me cos im v dao. but yeah. im kinda antisocial when it comes to new people. but hahaha.  i think it's normal right!

doing math now. online. oh i have the nicest friends. like 2/5 dinner the other day. guys are damn nice. they offer to carry stuff for girls even if the bag is damn girly and stuff. so gentlemanly. i likeeee. potential wonderful boyfriends. they go out of their way just to help. Like th teaches me math step by step. v patient. just like ht. maybe people whose names have teng and hong.  are v patient and are good at math. hahahaha. im really glad i have them in my life. so thankful for everything i have. wonderful friends,seniors, bf, family. <3


life is good. makes up for the lousy days earlier in the week.
 

i wasted my life at rehearsal BUT i got to meet W after that. trade off + highlight of my day. hahaha. though it was only for awhile that made my entire day SO much more bearable.. hahahaha. and i really need to stop burping like damn loudly. like after i drink my drink i just wanna burp damn loud. hahhahahaha. sometimes i forget or i think no one is around i would like burp loudly. hahahahaha..so while walking home.. i thought we were alone then i burped. then out of nowhere came a lorry. and his window wasnt wound up. so. UH. GUESS HE HEARD ME. hahahha.  i wanted to tell W.  pretend it's you! but i was holding the drink. so i thought forget it. cant hide it. and so i told him. Lets walk really fast now!! hahahahaha. NEED MORE SELF CONTROL.

TMR'S ONLY THURSDAY. OH MY MA MA.

yesterday i went out w J. (hahahaha. pun. if you get it.) had a nice talk at mos burger. it's cool she's somewhat like me. we both like to eat at mos burger alot.  anddddd it's nice that we tell each other loads of stuff. really thankful for a friend like that.  she really deserves to find someone who treats her right. like seriously.. and i really hope that the world wouldnt be so harsh on her today. tough day.. but  im sure she will do fine. she's such a strong girl. i have never seen her break down even though i know she's clearly upset. and i really admire her for that. but oh well..  she wouldnt read this. but i really hope she finds happiness someday,

anyway story of my after that i went to meet W and we had some miscommunication and i got angry, haha. poor him. it wasnt his fault. like i knew in my head that it was like miscommunication and i shouldnt blame him. but i just got angry anyway. we got on the train and i still didnt want to talk cos i was annoyed. so like for 3 mins or so.. i  ignored him completely. and guess what happened next. i saw his face from the corner of my eye anddd...  i started laughing. like my mood swung like crazy. like i was laughing for no particular reason. maybe it's just the worried look on his face. hahahahaha. then we both laughed. so like end of ignoring. life is good again. thank you, pms. w says i might be bipolar. but i checked the symptoms. im not! hahahahahaha. anyway today's three hundred days and we're still v happy. tyvm.

anyway. i think im the only loser who isnt going out on HBL day. so im just staying at home to do the online stuff

 

so, today one the bus i read the usual horoscope website i go to. and it said..

You think you’re right and you’re determined to prove it. And you know what? You probably are right. But at what cost to a friendship? Is it really worth pursuing? Only you know for sure, but weigh your options carefully.

i have always been amazed by this website. it's true pretty often.. just that i kinda didnt want it to come true today. but.. it kinda did. when i least expected it. and i was annoyed. and i guess. i dont really wanna hold on to anything now. swingswingswing.yesterday was fine. i thought, well hey maybe things would change for the better. i thought wrong. little things annoy me now, should be the same for you. oh well.

at least i have someone to talk to. (haha actually somefour)
hahaha. i love being myself and being stupid around my best friends. had a great time w pay and liew on tuesday camwhoring and catching up, we wont let stuff break us so easily. and im grateful for that. cant believe we've been close since sec one. and havent had any problems. :) looking forward to sentosa w them. woooohoooo!!
oh yes tuesday was nice. got roses! :D happy girl. they looked pretty in my bag. ANYWAY. the nicer part was that. we went to eat. and i was craving for hawker centre food. so unromantic. but yeah. we ordered food for like about three hungry people. or like four normal appetitte people. yeah, so we couldnt finish it. BUT HAHAHA, I ENJOYED THE MEAL. SO FUN TO EAT TILL YOU'RE DAMN FULL. AND WATCH TV. hahahaha.

LIFE IS STILL GOOD. had a good talk w sushi today about life. and like. MY SURPRISE PLAN FOR W FAILED TODAY. booo. but nevermind. I GOT WAFFLE OMNOMNOMNOMNOM. HAHAHAHA. GOODBYE. I SHALL DO WORK NOW.